I think I slit my wrists again and I'm gone, gone, gone...

'cause we run under the stars through cemetery backyards,
celebrate the way the night hides scars.
 
so, dance if it moves you!
jump in the fire if it burns you!
I'll throw my arms around you, darling,
and we'll turn to ashes;
drown me in the flames.
{props & mayhem - pierce the veil}
 
-
 
all good things have to end
and this is the end.
the end of us, forever.
 
i'm so sick of your shit
and i'm so sick of my shit.
i just need to get away from you,
from me, from everything.
 
your fucking paraphernalia is everywhere.
i can't escape you.
i can't escape you.
i can't escape you.
 
-
 
high school's over.
feel's kind of weird.
but i'm glad. i fucking hated that hell.
(maybe a little bit scared for uni, but we'll see what happens)
 
-
 
lol i kissed a boy.
well, he kissed me.
i hope it never happens ever again.
lol
 
-
 
i can't take polyvore seriously any more.
bye.

that's how you sang it.
loving you forever can't be wrong.
even though you're not here; won't move on.
that's how we played it.
 
and there's no remedy for memory,
your face is like a melody;
it won't leave my head.
your soul is haunting me and telling me
that everything is fine,
but I wish I was dead.
{dark paradise - lana del rey}
 

 

 

hi. still remember me?
i love lana del rey.
seriously.
love
her.
 

 

roughly two months until hsc
which means roughly three months until high school is over
forever.
thank you sweet baby jesus.
i'm so ready to leave these people behind.
and the memories.
to forget all of the memories that haunt me in the night.
 

 

 

 

 

don't you hate it when things are going really great
but you know it's got an expiry date
but you just ignore those thoughts
those realistic (albeit depressing) thoughts
and you just enjoy it because you think you deserve a little bit of
happiness
...
but then it just blows up in your face
and you're left right where you started from.
in a fucking hole in the ground
wallowing in your self pity
and hating yourself and everyone,
everything
around you?
 

 

 
anyway,
listen to lana del rey.
born to die - a really great album.
do it.

and you won't ever know, you won't ever see
how much your ghost since then has been defining me.
{you and i in unison - la dispute}
 
this is my first set in four months
n_______________n
 
i was tagged by the lovely @blossom-of-snow
you can view her set here: http://www.polyvore.com/ive_had_dreams_boston_all/set?id=46808212
(go and like it because it's wonderful - as usual)
 
sorry for this hideous set.
i seem to have lost all my poly-skills :'c
 
1. you must use one item that was in this set (i used the heart and the "marry me" text)
2) you must use an item from page 10 of your items (WOOPS COMPLETELY FORGOT ABOUT THIS PART MY BAD)
3) when you finish, please tag me in your set, so i can see the finished product!
4) while publishing, tag 8 other people!
 
k. so i tag:
@little-red
@cautionfragile
@break-my-fall
@secretslikeanchors
@loveisinfinite
@all-i-son
@acidfairy
@dust-and-wanderlust
 
THIS SET IS ALSO DEDICATED TO @little-red BECAUSE IT WAS HER BIRTHDAY ON THE WEEKEND AND YEAH I HOPE YOU HAD A GREAT DAY HEHE :3
(also go check out her sets and read her stories because they are gr8)
 
WAHHHHH. I HOPE EVERYONE IS OK.
I MISS YOU GUYS.
I HAVE BEEN ON/OFF/ON/OFF WITH POLYVORE LATELY. BUT I PROMISE I WILL REPLY TO MESSAGES SOON-ISH.
 

 

 

 

 

 

 

i got myself a new girlfriend.
n________________n
shhhh! don't tell! it's all very hush-hush. she's super cute though! :3
 
kbye.

keep burning like fire,
it's burning you down.
{fire - sleeping with sirens}
 
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hi. it's been a while.
i say that at the beginning of every note recently.
sorry. i hardly have the time for this site now.
 
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i have so much to say, but i don't have the words.
they're all in my head, but they won't come out on paper
(or on the screen).
i miss the freedom i used to feel when i was here.
i miss the people. i miss the creativity.
now look at what we've become: templates, and "ideas" and "people you're following" and this has just become another site. just another site.
i miss the old polyvore.
 
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everyone's been annoying me recently.
they follow me on tumblr and they follow my personal blog, and as a result, i can't express my anger for them online.
it's driving me crazy.
i wish they would leave me alone.
 
i've picked up these bad habits again.
i bite my lips until they bleed; i'm picking at scabs.
and other things, so many other things.
i thought it was getter better, but it's only getting worse.
 
why can't they just leave me alone?
 
-
 
i miss my best friend.
we haven't talked properly for so long.
 
i don't understand the way my head works.
i crave her attention almost to the point of obsession,
but then i push everyone away and i just want them to
leave me the fuck alone.
 
i don't want to talk to anyone.
i don't want to talk to anyone.
i hate everyone.
and everything.
and this feeling that fills me when i think about life after school.
i don't know what the fuck i'm going to do because i'm just useless and dumb and ugh.
 
all schools should be burnt down.
 
-
 
hi.
if you're reading this: you know who you are.
i miss you.
i love you.
just talk to me.
i want you.
 
-
 
if you've read this far, i guess i can tell you some stuff that's happening at school.
so i'm taking extension two english, which is where you pretty much write your own short story/really long essay/film script/play etc etc.
and we have to have a concept that we're exploring in our "major work".
my concept is 'perfection' and what people do in order to be perfect and what happens when it all just becomes too much (if you've been stalking me throughout these past two years, you'd know that i struggle with this too.)
so i need your help.
well, not really, but it would be nice.
if you could just tell me what you think 'perfection' means and why you think people want to be perfect and why people are so blind to their own beauty.
it would help.
a lot.
thanks, in advance.
 
if you want to do it anonymously,
http://www.light-thematch.tumblr.com/ask
or
www.formspring.me/lightthematch
or you can just message me on here if you don't want other people to see your response.
 
thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you.
you're all beautiful by the way.
i know it gets said a lot and i know it's really cliche now, but you are. all of you.
and i'm so glad i got to meet you.
my life would be so different without you.
really.
 
:-)

{empty sighs & wine - isles & glaciers}
 
-
 
here you go. a cute little set for a cute little ballerina :D
go check out @blossom-of-snow and tell her happy birthday for monday hahaha
HI CAROLINE
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CAROLINE.
♥
 
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yayyyyy i made this at school.
i have maths first period. eewwwwwww.
okies bye ~

{andria - la dispute}
fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk this band is amazing.
 
-
 
hey. look at me an oli up there woooooo ~
we make a gr8 couple, right?
yep.
 
-
 
i was tagged by @polarbear1 ! check out this set http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=38727833 it's so snazzy! :3 i used the stripey lines and now i tag:
@n0sebleed
@izzy-is-such-a-hipst3r
@nagi
@glitterinmyviens
the first letter of all your usernames spells out my name lol
 
-
 
spam this shit
http://www.formspring.me/lightthematch
 
-
 
halloween party tomorrow.
i'm going as andy six from black veil brides.
IT WILL BE AWESOME. AND THERE WILL BE PHOTOS.
 
what are you lot dressing up as?

{second & sebring - of mice & men}
you have no idea how much i love this album and this song ugh <3
 
-
 
we came as romans are amazing.
and my chemical romance ♥
if anyone knows who the girl with the green hair is, please tell me so i can tell her that i love her.
 
austin carlile is a babe.
kellin quinn is an even bigger babe.
 
SUICIDE SILENCE ARE AMAZING.
YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE, SO JUST GO F CKING NUTS!!!!!!!!!!
seriously, most played song on my mp3 lol
 
-
 
holidays suck when you have nothing to do and no money.
@mentalissues is so lucky. she's in hong kong. disneyland. UGH SO JEALOUS.
and @little-red is in melbourne.
D AMN THESE B TCHES GET TO GO EVERYWHERE.
 
hey.
a couple more weeks and then i'm in year twelve.
oooooooh scary.
 
I CAN'T WAIT THOUGH I'M GOING TO SKIP EVERY MATHS LESSON LULZ AND I'LL HANG OUT IN THE LIBRARY AND POLYVORE HAHAHAHA
 
-
 
okay now i'm listening to SS again.
YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE, SO JUST GO F CKING NUTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 
i missed counter revolution :c
and i missed the hollywood undead concert :'C
i'm going to miss the asking alexandria/the amity affliction show in october, too, because mum's being a real c unt and she's not letting me do anything :'c
the foo fighters show is a no-go, too :'(
WHY DOES MY LIFE SUCK WHY
@chalker has to record the whole foo fighters concert for me hahahahahahahaha
 
i swear if my mum doesn't let me go to soundwave 2012..........................................................................
DDDDDDDD:<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<
i will be so angry.
 
-
 
how is everyone?
i haven't been on for a while.
i miss this site, really.
i miss all the friends i had and all the amazing sets.
now my homepage is filled with dumb text posts and b tches complaining about s tupid s hit.
 
BRING BACK THE QUALITY, I SAY!
 
-
 
also, if anyone has a pair of size 5 black doc martens that they don't want.................. feel free to donate them to me lol
i want to make glitter docs. or just draw all over them. something.
 
I WAS GOING TO MAKE SPACE SHOES BUT I CAN'T BE BOTHERED TO GO OUT AND GET PAINT AND S HIT I'M SO POOR :'(
 
-
 
you know, helena better like her birthday present, because after i buy it, i will seriously have $0 left.
 
-
 
ugh no motivation to do anything. and i have to finish my s tupid maths tutor homework :(
:( :( :( :(
 
-
 
there's a new nickelback album coming out.
21.11.11 - NICKELBACK MONDAY HEHEHEHEHEHE
so excited you have no idea.
 
me: HEY MUM GUESS WHAT? THERE'S GONNA BE A NEW NICKELBACK ALBUM!!!!!!!!!!!
mum: .............................
me: AREN'T YOU EXCITED?????
mum: no.
me: WHY NOT??????????????
mum: because you'll play it all the time and i'll have to listen to it.................................................
 
LULZ.
 
-
 
okay bye.
 
-
 
S TUPID POLYBOT THERE IS NO BAD WORD IN HERE I HATE YOU SDJDFGHDKGKDFGK

{gotta be somebody - nickelback}
listening to the 'dark horse' album and falling in love all over again ♥. fuck all you bitches who hate 'em. nickelback4lyf~
 
-
 
this is my shitty excuse of a set.
lol
 
-
 
heaps of shit to do
i got tagged by @lexiaesthetic and @c0ffee-kid and @spunkypeanut :D
ermm, i have to fill in this survey. hang on.
 
A - AVAILABLE: yes. no. yes. dtf.
 
B – BIRTHDAY: 4th march :)
 
C - CRUSHING ON: exgirlfriend. am i lame or what?
 
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: water? idunno. i can't remember.
 
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: helena.
 
F - FAVORITE SONG: i have a lot. right now? gotta be somebody - nickelback LOLLLLLL~
 
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: WORMS.

H – HOMETOWN: sydney babyyyyyy.

I - IN LOVE WITH: nutella?
 
K - KILLED SOMEONE: totes magotes.

L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: from sydney to brisbane. it was more than 12 hours, i think D:
 
M - MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: chocolate. idunno. not a big fan of milkshakes.
 
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: ZERO

O - ONE WISH: can i please have instant noodles for breakfast forever?
 
P - PERSON THAT CALLED YOU LAST: i don't call people. people call me lol.
 
R - REASON TO SMILE: you.
 
S - SONG YOU LAST SANG: i'd come for you - nickelback. SINGING IT RIGHT NOW. BY NOW YOU'D KNOW THAT I'D COMEEEEE FOR YOUUUU~
 
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 5:57am.
 
U - UNDERWEAR COLOR: black. helena once told me that black undies means that you're horny lolololol.
 
V - VEGETABLE: POTATO!
 
W - WORST HABIT: saying i'll go to sleep really early but then not going to sleep until like 3am and waking up like an hour later because i can't fall asleep. ugh.
 
X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: collarbones.
 
Y - YEARS LIVING WHERE YOU LIVE: one.

Z - ZODIAC SIGN: the fish one. i can never spell it.
 
RANDOM QUESTIONS
 
Spell your name without vowels: nng
 
What color do you wear most?: black.

Least favorite colors?: that mustard yellow. ew.
 
What are you listening to?: nickelbackkkk.

What is your favorite class: latin/chemistry.
 
When do you start back at school/college?: IT NEVER ENDS.
 
Are you outgoing?: sometimes
 
Favorite pair of shoes?: purple doc martens. or my new chunky red heels.
 
Can you dance?: no. lol
 
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth?: NO! @mentalissues CAN THOUGH!!!! :D
 
Can you whistle?: YESSIR
 
Cross your eyes?: yep lol
 
Walk with your toes curled?: yep.
 
THE DO'S
 
Do you believe there is life on other planets?: YES.
 
Do you believe in miracles?: SOMETIMES
 
Do you believe in magic?: OF COURSE <3
 
Love at first sight?: a little bit.

Do you believe in Santa?: lol sometimes
 
Do you like roller coasters?: NO OH MY GOD I'M TERRIFIED OF HEIGHTS NO NONONONONNO
 
Have you ever been on a plane?: yep.
 
Have you ever asked someone out?: nope.
 
Have you ever been asked out by someone?: yes.
 
Have you ever been to the ocean?: YES.

Have you almost drowned in the ocean?: NO OMG THAT'D BE SO SCARY :(
 
What is the temperature outside?: cold?
 
What radio stations do you listen to?: 2dayfm lol.
 
What was the last thing you bought?: sushi :D
 
What was the last thing on TV you watched? hamish and andy's gap year HAHAHAHA.
 
Who was the last person you took a picture of?: me?

Ever really cried your heart out?: yes.
 
Ever cried yourself to sleep?: yes.
 
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?: yes.
 
Ever cried over the opposite sex?: no, i don't think so.
 
Do you cry when you get an injury?: i try not to, but usually i do lol i'm a wimp.
 
Do songs make you cry?: OH MY GOD WHEN I'M HAVING A BAD DAY AND THEN PIERCE THE VEIL COMES ON SHUFFLE AND BAM!!!!! I'M LIKE BAWLING MY EYES OUT. and also miserable at best - mayday parade gets me all teary.
 
Are you a happy person?: on the outside.
 
What is your current hair color?: black but my tips are this stupid dark brown/red/orange thing in the sun. it's annoying.
 
CURRENTLY WEARING?
 
What are you wearing?: sweatpants, a chunky sweater and ugg boots hahaha.
 
Your eye color?: dark brown?
 
Short or long hair?: that awkward length that's too long to be called short and too short to be called long.
 
Height?: 164cm :D
 
WHAT TO DO: Fill out these questions and make a new set. Then tag 13 people. If I tagged you, you have take this survey and repost it. Don't forget to tag me because I want to know more about you :)
 
okay cool i tag: @avadakedanielle @behindthesea @effyrocks @feedyourdesire @geekychika @heartattackswaitingtohappen @itsakindamagic @jaoo @kaylan3ss @lyddia @n0sebleed @paige-loves-music @orangurple YAY! :D
 
OKAY NOW I'M DONE I HAVE TO GO FINISH MY HOMEWORK MAYBE THERE'LL BE ANOTHER SET AT THE END OF THIS WEEK ARGH YEAR ELEVEN SUCKS BYE BYE BYEBYEBYEYBEE

If this is love, then I don't wanna be loved.
{sarcasm - get scared}
amazing band <3
 
hi. i'm back.
this week has been so shit.
i screwed up my economics exam and my psychology teacher is a psycho b itch and she kept talking in the middle of my presentation and i hate her so much!!!
 
and like now it feels like i don't even have a fucking best friend anymore since she keeps ignoring me and not talking to me. she just treats me like i'm shit and stuff and i hate it. i hate her.
 
(no. kidding. i could never hate her.)
 
but yeah, life kind of sucks right now.
 
i think i'm going to start drawing again because i've been so uncreative lately and it's annoying me.
 
we got given our subject selection forms for year twelve, and i think i know what i'm doing now:
english
english extension 1
english extension 2
latin
latin extension
chemistry
advanced maths
 
wow. i sound like a total nerd. i probably won't get to do english extension 2 cause i'm kind of failing normal english right now, but i really wanna do it because all you have to do is just a major work - that's it; nothing else. and since i really like creative writing, i think i'd do alright...
 
soundwave revolution in a month and a bit! :D yay, i REALLY need this. i need to get away from everything.
 
okay.
um.
leave comments.
AND TELL ME YOUR FAVOURITE KIND OF FOOD COZ I'M SO HUNGRY RIGHT NOW WHEN IS LUNCH???

{blackout - breathe carolina}
everyone has to go get their new album because it's just amazing and i'm addicted.
 
what up guys? it's been a while hahaha.
um. so much has happened.
did i tell you i broke up with my girlfriend? well. she broke up with me, but yeah... it's been like more than a month now.
i miss her.
shit happens.
yeah.
 
soundwave revolution~
i'm going for sure. my friend's bought the tickets and everything! YES. and they're announcing other bands that are playing on august 1st :D
(if pierce the veil is one of them, i will die. of happiness, of course)
 
school is killing me.
i had my latin exam today, and i was so worried this morning because i didn't study very much (just the night before and in the morning) but it was easier than i expected! and i actually answered every question and i'm so proud of myself hahaha.
YOU SHOULD BE PROUD TOO.
 
in a couple of months, it'll be my two-year anniversary on this site. crazy cool, right? two years omg!
 

 
i've lost like two kilos since the holidays started yayayayay i can feel my hipbones and they feel so lovely. (every time i say "lovely" i say it like cassie, from skins.)
 

if it keeps raining like this, my pool will flood.
in fact, i think it's flooding right now.
:/
 

polyvore is changing again. we're getting domain names? so it's just going to be like tumblr. ugh. and you can tag people in posts and comments and stuffy omg this is going to be horrible. and there might be a status updating thing. I REALLY DON'T NEED THAT. SRSLY.
why can't everything just stay like it is???
 

okay, i really hate being single. and alone. and cold. yeah it sucks i'm going to look for a new boy/girlfriend lol
 
THIS SET TOOK SO LONG LOL
 
kay leave comments and shit
and umm
tell me what you'd name your cat (if you had one).
 
i'd call my cat oli.
because oli sykes is amazing.
:D